Are you still there? Or have you moved away?

I shouldn't be bothered, but I am.
We were roommates for 3 years and have not seen each other for at least 5.
I moved away and started a new life, but I've been back to visit at least 3 times in the last 7 years.
She has not visited here once.
I've made a point to keep an email in her inbox at least three times a year and a phone call at least once a year.
I know it's not that she doesn't want to see me...we are like brother and sister and with siblings you can sense those sort of things.
But this weekend, I really wanted her here.
I've finally accomplished something that I am proud of and want to share with as many people whom I care about.
Granted, I love my children and family and want to show them off also, but this is something creative and personal.
Something that is a glimmer of what I wanted to be when she and I were roommates and I imagined my future.
And she will not be here to see it...